I was recently given a diagnosis of a tumor in my duodenum – that part of your intestine near your stomach. Benign, “it” has a history of becoming pretty aggressive, so it has to come out.
My logical brain wonders if there are more of them past the field of vision of my physician’s endoscope.
Am I afraid? No, not really. At first, what I really felt was inconvenienced. “I’ve got work to do and I don’t have time to have surgery.” But, then, what occurred to me was perhaps this is part of my work.
“Something good will come of this,” whispered in my heart. That is the promise God made to each of us who love Him and work for His purpose. I have to take Him at His Word because He is who He is and He will do what He says He will do. He is my God, Master, Lord and Friend.
I had not thought about making a blog out of my situation, but it occurred to me there is someone out there who is also facing an uncertain diagnosis. They may be afraid and fear an uncertain future. Maybe that person will see my story and know they are not alone.
Several years ago, I remember looking up and seeing angels frolicking in the sky. I’ve looked for them hundreds of times since and can only see clouds. I have asked 1000 times, “Why, Lord, did you show me the angels?” Today the answer came; they give me hope in times of doubt. They give me courage in times when I need strength.
No matter what road this journey takes, I’m going to be ok. God will protect me and love me every step of the way. Does that mean I will be cured of all ills and my life extended on earth? No, it doesn’t mean that at all. It means I will live protected by His love and given His promise of life with Him in the future.
Whether I’m living in this world or the next – I’ll still be living.
Yes, something good will come of this – maybe I can be that symbol of hope and courage to someone else and perhaps that will be my journey all along.
I’ll keep you posted of all the lessons learned and the people I’m sure to meet. This may be the time of my life. I think I’ve been chosen. Thank you, Lord, for all your blessings. Even those blessings that come in a disguise and all of those we do not recognize.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.” Romans 8:28