I recently underwent a surgical thyroidectomy for the removal of 3 unknown tumors. Pretty major stuff and I can’t say I was not anxious. I was anxious and knew that all I had was the ability to lean into my spiritual security blanket. So, taking a small bag of toothpaste, a brush and clothing, I checked into the hospital.
Surgery can be such a depersonalizing experience. You have to leave all of your familiar surroundings and step into the cold world of technology. Deep inside, I said, “Ok, where are you God?” I’m here on this cold stretcher – surrounded by strangers – banded with a bracelet and placing my life in the hands of healthcare professionals – just like me.
I watched, listened and waited for encouragement. My nurses were smiling, efficient and appreciative. They completed all of their necessary tasks. “This is good”, I felt and said to myself.
Suddenly, the curtain parted and there entered yet another healthcare provider. A kind and friendly person, his demeanor is profoundly professional – and yet tender and caring. The entire atmosphere in my little cubicle changed. With him came a silent, yet strong confidence. And, then, after looking at all of the records and answering all of my questions, he stopped. He stopped and looked directly into my eyes. He didn’t need words for his “spirit” said everything. What I “heard” was “It’s ok. I know you are afraid and I care about just that very essential part of you.”
There was at that instant a striking moment of connection. He then put his arm around my shoulders and my soul was touched. In a moment of stillness, he allowed me to just close my eyes and feel his profound energy of compassion.
My question was answered. I knew that this person allowed God to work through him. I knew I was at the right place and in capable hands. I knew that my God had control of this situation and that I was not alone. My prayers were answered. My reports came back benign and I am headed toward full recovery.
When you are facing fear and the unknown – be still and know with certainty that God has control over your life – your breath – your destiny.
And, if ever given the opportunity – let Him touch a soul through you and experience a reassurance and peace that transcends all understanding.